My band, As She Asphyxiates, is basically stagnant as all hell, but I'm writing tons of stuff for it. I have recently undergone a massive life change, and so I have TONS of inspiration. I have learned the meaning of pain, and also the true meaning of forgiveness. I have reached into the depths of my soul and I have pulled out the black parts. Well, most of them at least. Finally I understand what love is, and also what love is not. Love is kind, and patient, and faithful, and honest, and love is always based on trust, never on restrictions or giving something up. Love is acceptance for who a person is right then, and not who they could be.

Finally I understand pain. Finally I understand myself. Finally I no longer need to feel like I have to run away from living my life exactly the way I want to.

And so I write. I write and I become something greater than myself.

And I forgive... as hard as it was to let go of the pain, I finally have. Thank you for teaching me so many things (probably unintentionally), and I hope you learned something as well. I'll probably see you around at some point. Now I don't dread that day.

Life is good. God is good. He's my best friend, and he'll never let me down like I let people down.